New art post, a lil' bit of angst with this one haha.
Honestly the main reason I drew this was because I wanted to draw his morphology and his arm (I explained how in my imagination his right arm is burnt by gamma injections).
So let's dive in and talk about it a lil bit!
So I tried to be kind of respectful to Tim's body but it's complicated 'cause unlike Mark Ruffalo there's barely any pic of him shirtless and it's not something that happens that much in movies either so I used the poster for Bang Bang for that and what you can guess through his outifts.
In Incredible Hulk he had a small belly visible in his blue shirt so it means the lower of his torse has a little "bump", it's not "flat", I don't know how to explain that but you'll see that his belly is still a bit visible and not totally erased by his malnourished body in my fanarts.
Tim lended his voice, his face but also his body to Sam, so even if you want to change Sam's body to make it matches his own life and history you have to keep that in mind and still try to be somewhat close enough to his actor's body.
And it's fucking HARD to try to guess how someone would look like with less fat, more fat, less muscles, more muscles etc... (especially when you have little to no pictures of their body, as good as I can be to figure out the basic base of someone's morphology even with a shirt on) but I think it's an ok enough job I did here.
I will change it anyway because I want to add way more scars in his whole body. I want his body to look as damaged as his head and mind, to be the reflect of the darkness in his heart. I want people to look at him and feel incredibly grossed out at the idea of all the shit he endured but also at his dehumanization. 'Cause that's the interesting thing with this Sam, how human he is behind this dehumanization that he suffers both physically and mentally ('cause he also rejected his humanity by seeing himself as a monster).
Also because Sam is inspired by monsters and, like Hulk, Frankenstein story, that's why I gave comics Sam scars and I think it's only relevant to add some to MCU Sam.
I don't know how yet, I made a quick doodle to start to figure that out.
In Incredible Hulk he had a small belly visible in his blue shirt so it means the lower of his torse has a little "bump", it's not "flat", I don't know how to explain that but you'll see that his belly is still a bit visible and not totally erased by his malnourished body in my fanarts.
Tim lended his voice, his face but also his body to Sam, so even if you want to change Sam's body to make it matches his own life and history you have to keep that in mind and still try to be somewhat close enough to his actor's body.
And it's fucking HARD to try to guess how someone would look like with less fat, more fat, less muscles, more muscles etc... (especially when you have little to no pictures of their body, as good as I can be to figure out the basic base of someone's morphology even with a shirt on) but I think it's an ok enough job I did here.
I will change it anyway because I want to add way more scars in his whole body. I want his body to look as damaged as his head and mind, to be the reflect of the darkness in his heart. I want people to look at him and feel incredibly grossed out at the idea of all the shit he endured but also at his dehumanization. 'Cause that's the interesting thing with this Sam, how human he is behind this dehumanization that he suffers both physically and mentally ('cause he also rejected his humanity by seeing himself as a monster).
Also because Sam is inspired by monsters and, like Hulk, Frankenstein story, that's why I gave comics Sam scars and I think it's only relevant to add some to MCU Sam.
I don't know how yet, I made a quick doodle to start to figure that out.
But I'm not satisfied with that yet. Though I do like the idea of a scar on his spine and something similar to a heart surgery scars. As I said in another post, there's not only an electric torture chair in his prison, there's also torture "beds" so you can assume that he went through way more than just gamma injection. He was probably "opened" just to study him. After all, Ross' goal was to make more gamma folks, not just enhancing Sam's.
So of course I kept the burnt arm and I gotta figure everything else out. I also added scars on his left wrist because I don't think you can survive 16 years of total isolation from people and sunlight and torture and humiliation and dehumanization and shit without trying to "escape" life, in a way or another. Maybe that's one of the few reason he had people watching him 24/24 (this and him being dangerous af, of course).
Maybe he would do surgery on himself too, given how twisted his face is, maybe he had to "fix" himself a few time when the gamma poisonned him. Organs dying and shit like that.
After all Bruce mentionned in She-Hulk that the gamma they were exposed to was deadly unless you had the genetic to survive it. Bruce and Jen are totally "fine" with it (in the way that they're not dying from the gamma, which is something Sam mentionned in Incredible Hulk too, how Bruce was supposed to be dead given the dose in his blood), Blonsky got an (incomplet) Super Soldier serum, giving him an healing Factory which would help him survive it (but he's still way more difformed and out of control, because it's incomplet) and Sam has nothing but he does have a gamma brain that could figure out how to save Ross' life and so certainly that would be enough for him to figure out how to stay alive. It would even kinda be comics accurate, in the way that unlike Bruce, Sam "died" from gamma poisonning a few time (he saved himself but he was dying a few times). And yes, I know what I just said about him escaping life so why would he try to save himself and fix his damaged body. Well if you ever lived through a suicidal crisis (which I hope you didn't) you will understand why. A suicidal person is conflicted about their will to live and their need to die, it's not uncommon nor weird to think Sam would do that too. And yes, I know they're have the same blood in comics, but it's a very recent addition to their lore, both MCU Sam and Bruce were already a thing when it was added and I don't think the MCU will explore that, they don't even explore Bruce's family issues so...
That's what I wanna improve in upcoming Sam's arts.
That being said, let's dive in into the art itself :
I had absolutly no idea in mind when I drew this other that drawing his arm, as I said, so I didn't think anything prior to the art, it happened.
That's something I wanted to talk about when I realized the length of my previous art post, in fact, it's how "scary" it can be for people who are learning to draw to see all the things I think about and so ipso facto all the things they need to think about.
When I started archery, I felt this way. The first thing my coach (may he be at peace now) told us is how many things you need to check to properly shot one arrow. Your posture, the way you hold your bow, the way you pull the string, where to stand, how your feet should be, how your hands should be etc..) and it gave me vertigo just THINKING about it, but that's the thing. he also taught us that all these things will become reflex at some point and you wouldn't even notice you're thinking it anymore.
Well, it's the same thing when you draw. At some point thinking all these things will become a mere reflex once you're used to think about it. Which makes it hard when I want to explain my process in fact, because for me it's just a reflex. Using this color rather than this one is a reflex, doing this pose rather than another one is a reflex etc etc...
So I didn't really think this art, it was a reflex.
Hidding his face in the shadow to make him creepier and also making a callback to the movie. Adding green tears similar to blood to his wounded white eye, the lifeless posture, the colors, it all came out by itself.
Some of you noticed it because it's not subtil but yes, that's a fallen angel. The blue halo behind his head is not just a way to make his dark face more visible and so more threatening but it's also a way to 1) callback to his Mister Blue name and the music he uses to mind control people (thus around the head and not somewhere else) 2) giving an angel halo 3) giving him that kind of "brain power" aura as well. The red behind him that looks like blood drowning are his wings. Making it red is a callback to 1) his prison (so his pain), 2) blood, obviously, 3) danger. Red is a color for danger and violence.
And of course the end of the wings looking like blood drowning also serve the purpose of making his wings kind of damaged (fallen angel we have here, so his wings are damaged) and blood illusion that gives it a sinister angst aura.
The green tears are here to make him 1) bloody (but in a gamma way), so wounded but also scary, it's always threatening to see someone standing so normal while being covered in blood 2) looking like tears. MCU Sam doesn't accept his destiny or bless it, like his comics self, he curses it, he suffers it. And I hope it will remain this way if we ever see him again, I like it, it gives him a way sadder and interesting destiny.
And then the text are just things he says in the movie "I wanted my life back" in his wings and halo, so the remaining of his previous life, like a fallen angel carrying the broken wings of another life and "but it's too late for that now" in a way that makes it looks like the threat it was but also his inevitable faith.
I added an extra circle in his eye also
It's something you will often see in medias and other people's arts because it gives this kind of "uncomfortable" vibe, especially when it's wild open like this on a face you cannot see. It's an important code in horror (and erotism lol), hidding, suggesting rather than showing because if people have to think it it will be way scarier or more arousing, depending on the context (and your kinks I guess).
Sam (in both comics and MCU) is someone who gets carried away by his emotions, he doesn't control them, they happen and he suffers them in a way that it feels like he is "possessed" by them, they take the best out of him (and, again, I hope it will stay this way).
Sam (in both comics and MCU) is someone who gets carried away by his emotions, he doesn't control them, they happen and he suffers them in a way that it feels like he is "possessed" by them, they take the best out of him (and, again, I hope it will stay this way).
In this other fanart, for exemple, I gave him the extra circle because he can't control his sadness. It doesn't necessarly have to be a brutal explosion of emotion, it's just about him losing control over his emotion and breaking his emotionless mask. In the movie, Sam's emotion and his lost of control are very visible through Tim's voice (the perfect exemple of that is the phone call during the flight battle because it's the most obvious but really it's visible everywhere).
For obvious reasons I won't post the whole sequence but he started talking with his voice incredibly fucking low and slow and he ends up yelling YOU CAN CRUSH THEM ALL, that's what I'm talking about, right here he lost total control of his emotion and himself. That's obvious through his voice but also how his whole body giving him a violent anger reaction after that (the scream but also the way it shakes). That's what I'm talking about when I talk about losing his mask and being possessed by his emotions. He can't help it, he can't control it. And I can't show that through acting, so I'm showing it the only way I can, through lines.
Because lines, too, can be talkative.
I'm known for my colors but also my very clean lines. That's why here I did the opposite and gave him these very rought "sketch-like" lines. Very bold, undisciplined. Chaotic. Because that's the mood, chaos. I added these glitches in the colors as well for that.
It took me 3 hours to draw it. I'm not saying this to brag but rather to explain how these symbolisms just automatically come up in your mind when you're used to draw.
It's important to keep in mind these little to no effort arts are born of hours and days of researches for other arts and composition. Learning is the only way to get these reflexes, after all. But learning take time and pedagogy. If you want to learn and to be able to think fast when you draw then you gotta first give yourself the time, the patience and the kindness to learn.
I've been drawing almost everyday for almost 6 years now. Not because I wanted to be the best, not because I wanted to be good, but because I like it. Because it's a hobby and a passion. Because it makes me feel good.
Because it's not about being good, it's about feeling good and you don't need to have any skill for that.
And sure, yeah, I'm an overworking beast and a perfectionist machine so of course I try to improve, saying otherwise would be a lie. But it's not why I draw, I drew before I started developping skills and I always drew with the same love and care, no matter if it looks good or not. No matter if it's an unfinished ugly doodle or a whole-ass piece that took me weeks. I learnt because I was curious, not because I wanted to be good. Before it was my job, it was and still is my hobby. And a hobby doesn't require to be good to enjoy it. The only way to become good at something is to practice and to keep practicing you gotta enjoy it first. If the endgame is only to be good then you'll stop before you even start.
Because lines, too, can be talkative.
I'm known for my colors but also my very clean lines. That's why here I did the opposite and gave him these very rought "sketch-like" lines. Very bold, undisciplined. Chaotic. Because that's the mood, chaos. I added these glitches in the colors as well for that.
It took me 3 hours to draw it. I'm not saying this to brag but rather to explain how these symbolisms just automatically come up in your mind when you're used to draw.
It's important to keep in mind these little to no effort arts are born of hours and days of researches for other arts and composition. Learning is the only way to get these reflexes, after all. But learning take time and pedagogy. If you want to learn and to be able to think fast when you draw then you gotta first give yourself the time, the patience and the kindness to learn.
I've been drawing almost everyday for almost 6 years now. Not because I wanted to be the best, not because I wanted to be good, but because I like it. Because it's a hobby and a passion. Because it makes me feel good.
Because it's not about being good, it's about feeling good and you don't need to have any skill for that.
And sure, yeah, I'm an overworking beast and a perfectionist machine so of course I try to improve, saying otherwise would be a lie. But it's not why I draw, I drew before I started developping skills and I always drew with the same love and care, no matter if it looks good or not. No matter if it's an unfinished ugly doodle or a whole-ass piece that took me weeks. I learnt because I was curious, not because I wanted to be good. Before it was my job, it was and still is my hobby. And a hobby doesn't require to be good to enjoy it. The only way to become good at something is to practice and to keep practicing you gotta enjoy it first. If the endgame is only to be good then you'll stop before you even start.
That being said, as always, here's the song that I connect to this art. Sure it's about a love story so it's not that relevant to my little drawing, but the beginning of the song without context just matches him way too well so it doesn't really matter. When I connect a music to an art it's not always because of the full song, sometimes it can be about something else but there will be that one sentence or melody that will make me develop my art around it, like here.
Why do I have to beg
When all it's left is a memory
Forsaken
Why do I have to beg
When all it's left is a memory
Forsaken
Forsaken
Forsaken
Forsaken
Forsaken
Forsaken
Enjoy~
